I was scared. Totally scared. Scared and excited at the same time. My parents weren't going to be with me for the next three months. I was scared, because I was going to live on my own; excited, because it was a new journey. There weren't going to be anyone saying "Did you do your homework?" or "Did you make your bed?". I was going to be on my own. I was happy. I was so happy to be able to start a new life and a new experience. Nothing could have replaced that feeling, because that was a new feeling. Studying abroad was going to change my life. Living on my own away from my parents would help me know myself better and grow up.
That was a regular morning when my mom woke me up and told me that it was the time. It was the time to start a whole new life. I was sad, because I didn't want to leave my family. We all had our breakfast in the hotel that we stayed, and then headed to Cheshire Academy.
School was amazing. Teachers, students, classrooms and dorms were all better than I've expected. While having my key for the dorm, meeting new teachers, signing up for the activities that day, I felt different. At first I felt like I didn't know what was really going on. Everything was new. I had to get used to this "new normal".
I've met some students. "Hi. Welcome to Cheshire Academy. I am responsible for touring you guys the campus. If you have any questions let me know okay?" a returning international student said.
"Where are you from?" he said
"We are coming from Turkey."
"Oh, it must be far away from here. How did you find the school?"
"We found it on the internet and I applied here for the summer school, too". It was so difficult to talk. For every word I said about the school I wanted to cry, but not because of the school, because of my parents. I was going to miss them a lot. I wasn't sure if I was ready or not.
There were mostly international students and they all had missed their families and homes. Knowing that I wasn't the only one who felt scared, made me feel comfortable. I had a lot of friends that day. I didn't know I would meet that many of people in a day. From the day 1, there were more than fifteen people who I could call a friend.
When the first day ended I felt good. I felt good about everything. It was the right choice. My parents stayed around Cheshire for two more weeks. That made me get ready to live on my own. They would visit me after and before school. I wasn't aware that they were going to turn back so I felt like the school days were always going to be like that, with them.
"You need anything?" my dad asked me before leaving. "No. Everything's fine. Thank you so much for letting me study here." I said. "When will you be coming back?" "In 30 days. The time will fly so fast that you won't even remember. I promise." my mom said. They both hugged me. Then headed to the car.
When my parents left everything has changed. I was all on my own. I really understood the meaning of my parents at that moment. I wished I had never fought with them before and had always done what they have wanted from me. I experienced the real sadness and realized how strong I was.
That moment when they got into the car and left I tried to smile but it was so difficult since all I have wanted to do was to cry. I have never felt so confused. I realized the importance of my family. I could see their sadness, too. I'd never seen them so quiet and so sad. My parents were the ones that I had spent my days and nights with and now, they weren't going to be with me. Instead, there were going to be teachers and friends. I was sure that with different people around me, I was going to develop myself in so many different ways and experience a lot of things. I knew that I would know myself better in conditions of my emotions, and my relationships with people,because everything was going to be new and I had to make new relations with new people. When something bad would happen I would have to deal with it by myself, and that would help me grow up.
I understood at that time that no matter what happens, your family will always be the most important thing in your life. My life was changed; I had started a whole new journey. Was it going to be challenging? Yes. Was it going to be difficult? Yes, but I knew that I wasn't going to give up and do my best at school by remembering why I came here.
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